Overthinking things, yet again..!

I'm almost finished on the first chapter of my comic book I'm working on. 38 pages and 114 panels in total. I started in February / March of this year. There was a period of a couple of months in the summer where I didn't touch it due to focusing on other things, but all in all its probably taken six months of work, maybe more, to almost have chapter one complete. There's some revisions and touch ups I need to make to some of the earlier artwork where my skills with the pen & tablet weren't as good as they are now, so have to go back and ensure consistency throughout.

I've been happy with the rate of work I was achieving, I don't have the means to do it full time and have to work around the day job, so completing 114 panels of artwork in six months is pretty decent going. But then I did that thing that my stupid brain makes me do, where I do a bit of maths and work out how long it will take me to finish the full thing at my current rate of work. Inevitably leading me to an existential crisis when I realise it'll take me at least 20 years to complete, if I want it to have the scale and depth I've set out to achieve.

I get so frustrated with myself when I let my thought process get bogged down by goals and deadlines. Always focusing on the finish line when I really wish I could just let myself enjoy the process.

This is something I need to work on. Stop thinking things like "what's the point in doing it if I'm never going to be able to finish it?"

On that note, here's a "finished" page.